GOD HELP ME..PLEASE!..

i dont know how to get started....mmmm why dont we start with my final xam things?
ari tu final ssh sgt2... thap gaban+nate berok ssh nye...lbh2 lagi paper chemistry n math..owhhh mau nangis ak mase jawb soalan tu...ape la diorang ni bikin solan ssh2....mcm menganjing je!!
Ingat lagi when im sitting 4 my math paper(paper2),ak tkjut sngt2 tngok soalan tu...ye la mane tak nyer,ak tak pnah trsepak pun solan mcm tu...nikan plak nk mnjawab nyer dalam final xam....hushhh!!!soalan tu bikin ak panas!!!lantas lub dup lub dup mkin kncang...ak mmg stuck gile,n hahaha ak nangis mase tngk soalan tu....takut+upset+pissed...
tapi i've tried my best n skang i just can tawakkal n banyakkan bdoa...mtak2 la pointer ak tak de la truk sngat...tak mo kene reject dowh..
abis je paper math 2 sume mcm dtmpa kcelakaan,tngk org ni bad mood,nangis n etc...maknenye normal la kalo ak pon rase cam tu gak...


paper chemistry 2 pon mcm math p.2 gak...
tapi rase ak da mentally prepared so tak rase la sngt penangannye tu...tapi still worried sbb ak tak perform my best mase jwb paper tu...sakit perut n tgh ade prob dgn mmber....siot r...kusut...tak leh nk pikir langsung..just jawab ape yg ak tau je...
yg tkjut ckit ye soalan sem 2 pon da di tanye dlm final sem 1 nih...so sem 2 nk tanye soalan ape??
soalan bdak degree!!??hurmmmm heran la ak dgn org yg buat soalan nih..

tiba2...
'buzz buzz buzz'(nphone ak start vibrate....my mom called)
"ni adik dpt tawarn dri Lim Kok Wing ni....kos yg adik minat-Literature In English(foundation)"
for instant ak rase the earth stop to spin....n im barely able to breath.....ssh sngat nk buat kputusan..
left atrium n ventricle aku kate pegi tapi right ventricle n atrium aku kate stay kat matrik je...
tak tau la tu...mmg ssh sngat nk buat kputusan...tinggalkan matrik means i'll leave my friends...lagi sdh!!tu yg buat ak lagi ssh nk decide...tapi kalo ak tlak tawaran ni,brmaksud ak da tolak pluang tok s2dy overseas n tolak scholarship yg ak dpt....mcm mane ni???How could this happened??

solat istikarah da buat tapi tak dpt jawapan lagi....kene sbar la maksudnye...banyakkan amalan n sntiasa solat istikarah....ak yakin insyaallah tuhan akn tlg ak...

Ya Allah....tlg la ak....